Roti John~

Assalamualaikum,

Hi ~

Today is sooo lucky!

Wait a minute, roti john. I can cook the best roti john that i can eat. this is a good news. ok jap otak aku masih loading after bangun dari tidur tadi...

ok actually aku nak cerita kisah roti john dgn ayah. dulu ayah suka buatkan aku roti john. and i still ingat masa tu aku nak pegi theme park dgn my cousin and ayah buatkan bekal roti john. it soo sedap. i still ingat i request banyak sbb i suka makan roti john ayah buat.

after dah besar sikit then aku baru sedar ayah mmg suka masak and yes he is the best cooker in my life ~ after seharian penat di bengkel, ayah still manage to cook at home sebab mmg ayah pandai masak by using 'apa yang ada' in the fridge. and i still remember, after ayah balik keje and takde benda nak masak, all the sudden ada dish on meja ayah masak. and semua tu ada dalam fridge. he is the best!

last year is the last puasa bersama ayah. and i still ingat dia ada belikan bahan untuk i buat roti john cuz i want to eat roti john but i want to cook by myself. so, ayah belikan roti john punya isi. and i just cook. ayah paling suka kalau aku masak. he will always puji. kalau tak sedap, ayah xkan cakap x sedap. ayah akan cakap "pandai adik masak. nanti masak kurangkan air dia sikit'. soo the way he tegur i can accept. 

masa puasa 2019 pun ayah selalu gak bawa balik makanan yg paling i suka makan masa tu which is Nasi Ikan Keli Rambo. idk why but instead of ayam, i lg prefer ikan keli masa tu and i will ask for extra sambal. before balik kerja, ayah akan singgah beli makanan. i pun x sure kenapa tapi last puasa tu mmg tak banyak masak bersama. banyak beli makanan luar je.

sometimes, ayah akan ajak i teman dia pergi tapak kat sebelah jakel kl tu sbb dia ada buat kerja kat situ so dia nak show to me hasil kerja dia. i can see his smiling is so bright and proud on what he does. i feel so proud. peoples hormat ayah and ayah still humble. people always cakap ayah tu cina cuz mata sepet dia. even my friend kata ayah cute.. alahaiii HAHAHAHA. ayah aku handsome ok masa dia muda and askar. so bae! <3

i miss him so much.

so many memories.

if only u can taste my roti john ayah... u will be so happy sebab sedap taw :P

i will never forget how i drive that night following you behind the van. its just not me. i am so lost. i also can't even think how i handle myself on that time. who im searching for.. i guess nobody. i feel total lost when i lost u dad :') *nangis jap*

i think ada benda lain i want to story but thats all for today. maybe next time i will share more. thanks for reading, anonymous <3

❤😉💞💜🙋

*update*

mama suddenly cakap i ni so berdikari. lagi nampak sejak ayah takde.. well she just realized it now? 😂😆😆

i am independent.

fuhh~