i am still alive
Its been awhile.
After 2024 i stop writing and here i am again in the year 2026. there are a lot of new things. the technology, AI, even the generation also changed.
I don't know if I'm the same or not. its just that I feel like kinda off lately.
I am working under the ministry. office work. 9-6pm. weekdays. Sometimes OT up to 9pm.
Do u know, if u love your job, u will not realise you're doing it. you just love to do it. its very rare. but i know people love their jobs.
or just need the money asap.
Money also a must because we do need it to survive. Besides money, what else do u need?
u do need someone to hear you. just a friend who can listen to you. ur yapping, and u can feel relief.
People nowadays read less and more to short videos on TikTok, Facebook, or any other platforms.
I am writing today because i feel like people dont want to hear about what im saying. But when i go silent, they ask me to speak up. I choose silence for peace. but they interrupt me to speak and chose violence.
Do u ever heard, 'the most silence person, is the dangerous person'. Its same like, the mastermind, they will not say more unless if the need it. but people will see them as a 'unbothered' person. but the truth? only if u know it.
I am trying to stay calm and do my job as requested. however, when some instructions is not what on book, i feel something is off. i am questioning myself. do i really have to do this? but since it is from the bosses, u got no choice. right?
do u even want to question about it?
i am a grown-up kid now.
its tiring to become an adult
its no longer a teenager.
adult =/ teenager
do u even know the burden to handle responsibility is very tough?
or is it me that cannot handle it?
