2019 / PUBG MOBILE

Hey!

Its not 2019 yet but I just want to post it earlier. Since I don't really care about the date anymore :)

I just want to wish myself a happy belated day for me. Sweet 22 this year :* (i am not a loner)

So, i read a book which is reflect to myself and everybody around me. Its really annoying when people didn't do like what we ask for. And we want them to do it in our way. But we forget peoples are different and not an angel. People makes mistake and also we are.

When we ask them to do a task, don't assume they will do like our style. THEY HAVE THEIR OWN STYLE. So, don't bother about they style.

`~`

Almost 2019 and we can start to countdown the date starting for today. But am i achieve something this year (2017)?

NO !

I did have a job but then i quit. I really enjoy my job and the work environment. It never give a headache even once. But only i'm the one who tired with the working shift and easily get sick when people surround me is sick.

I take a lot of medical leave. And i can count it. Only for two month of working i already have 4 mc. and maybe my medical leave is already finished less than 6 month (only of im working there).

Next my big achievement and yet make me happy,

"WEH KAU DAH KURUS"

I am so proud of myself because i really want people to realize i am losing my weight and finally its really happen! My friends noticed that i am lose weight. Thanks for the strict diet for 1 month and its really give an effect.

Well its actually 1 month strict diet and the following month i just make sure i didn't go for a over limit food intake.

BUT NOW I AM SAD !

I can feel that my weight is increasing !!!!!

I need to start diet again in good way and need to make it sustain ~ hehe

I don't want to plan because im afraid it will end up something that i didn't plan at all.

`~`

PUBG MOBILE IS A COOL GAME AFTER FREE FIRE !

HAHAHAHAHA XD

Craving!

Its been awhile. I've been craving on something which is make me so sad and i lack of that thing. I just want write it on my diary but i can't . why... i also don't know why but i try to make it right and fine. act cool n normal even tho its not. i'm sick of it. i really tired for everything. i admit it. if one day you see this blog didn't have any updated less than a year, its mean i am gone. maybe died or passed away. either two. its not me to pick the way i die but its me who control the innermost of me. not u. u just a watcher who's not in my shoes. please take note.

to my dear reader (whoever read this), i am so thankful for your concern and your time for reading this rubbish notes. it is nothing i swear. why? everything that happen to me is my own decision and my own life. non of u controlling me life. EXCEPT ALLAH SWT. Only Him i can rely to. Not YOU!

I am struggling with myself and i know its sucks to be sick inside my head but outside looking so fine. what i want in my life is to be a teacher and be part of a government worker but its all destroyed with only simple reason. hate to remember it. thanks for your spirit and support towards me (even tho i don't know who).

So being part of me is a mess. i am being messed up with my own life. i blame myself. thank you

LAMA !

Hai semua! Assalamualaikum! Apa khabar?

Gosh i don't know who is still reading my blog since awhile.

Btw, i am very bossy with my own life but sometimes i just want to end it very soon.

WHY?

Just to end the pain.

SOMETIMES, its hurt.

Like so much hurting. and its killing me straight to my heart.

Its make my heartbeat stop for a moment and start breathing again after i settle down.

Who is in me?

Is there any demon inside?

Mental health problem is real.

I just afraid of something unsure and i am afraid of everything.

Manusia tetap buat kesilapan even dah ada experience and for me

MANUSIA MEMANG TAK PERNAH LARI DARIPADA MASALAH.

Why aku menulis macam ni?

I also have no idea.

I just miss to be a blogger

and

DOING MY PASSION HOBBY

such as;

game and vlogging (in my own world)

I need to start doing what i want to do.

I try.

DRAFT

Assalamualaikum,

Hai.

Long time no see. Even though we never meet.

Currently its not a good time to update my blog since I am kinda busy but I try my best to make time for it.

So, I have a lot of fun activities to be done when I'm still alive. I really hoping for something good to happen. But some of it already happen. In a good way and bad way too.

This kind of living, we still have pros and cons so don't worry and embrace it. You live only once so do whatever can make you feel blessed.

Its been awhile I didn't update my story here and wattpad too. A lot of story being untold and in draft. I'm sorry but I just not ready to post it or looking forward in whatever happen in my life. I still cannot bear with the future which is made me scared so much.

Yesterday, my mama friend came by and she is my English teacher. (Typical anak cikgu)

And I'm very happy to meet her because the last time I met her when I am standard 6 i guess. Now I am 21 years old in 2018. How long is that? HAHAHAHA! She compliment me like a lot in front of my dad and mom. They are very happy and proud about it. While me? Malu as fuck and lari masuk bilik. Why? Sebab before that she said I look slim. Straight away I jawab 'Diet setahun ni aunty. Susah taw diet.' All of us at the living room burst of laugh.

Before this I diet tak pernah nampak effect sebab salah gaya diet. Alhamdulillah after I make a step of change, everything is working out. I am so happy about it!

This Friday I gonna go for hang out with her and my mom and I'm looking forward for it! SUPER EXCITED! but where should i take her? hehehe

Oh

Run of the topic.

DRAFT ~

Why?

I wrote like a lot of post on blog but i save it as draft. Why i didn't post it? Because i got no guts to do it! Sometimes, my confidence is lost by giving it to the people who really need it. While? Not in need at all. Maybe its not the time yet~

I guess its the end.

Need to do something greater

So the world will recognize me

and claim

'SHE IS FROM MALAYSIA' !

i will be so damn proud that time

and i can die in peace

xx AMIN !

Susah bersama, senang lupa.

Assalamualaikum! Hai guys~

So basically my life is not what i wanted to be. But its okay because i love full of surprises in my life. I just need to prepare my mental and physical. Mental breakdown sometimes is fine so don't worry. I'm still alive tho.

Well something comes out from my mind. I always met people who at their lowest and while me? I'm not sure.

Maybe masa orang tu datang dalam hidup aku, aku kat atas or senang cerita i am okay then anyone else. Lepas tu, orang yang susah ni datang dan aku bagi life support kat dia.

Yes!

Memang itu terjadi dalam life aku sepanjang aku hidup. But well. I don't mind at all helping people in fact i love helping them. Just something i don't like.

Attitude

Its not cool if you are asking for help and they are helping you. But. Bila kau dah senang, easily lupa all the people who's helping you before. Why is this happen?

I do write about people cari masa susah is "okay" in my old post. But somehow we also touching because of that small thing.

Heyy! I am growing up. My perception is different a bit. You may ask for help but don't ever forget them. Even at you highest and lowest (of coz la kau need help takkan nak berlagak an) .

But i just realized, some of my friends mostly like that. Bila susah cari and then gone. But if kawan biasa i don't mind. What if they are your buddies? Terasa tak?

Ada la a few friend call me and ayat dia like this

"Weh sorry la aku cari kau bila perlu je."

Then what i replied?

"Eh takpe. Aku dah biasa dah. Lek ah"

See how cool is that my answer...

Seriously aku dah terbiasa sampaikan aku rasa macam susah nak bergantung kat orang. I love to do it on my own. Selagi aku boleh buat sendiri, i will do it on my own.

Why?

Because dari kecik i always do my job by my own. Its sad if i recap.. Honestly i don't like sad memories stuck in my brain. I love to let it go. So let it go.

But well my point is, NEVER FORGET apa yang orang dah buat. Helping you and so on. Its up to you how you want to appreciate but at least appreciate while they still exist on this earth.

Bla bla bla.. I talk to much. K bye 👋 👋

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Tonsil Experience

FREAKY SERAM-NESS ALERT !

Assalamualaikum guysss~

Okay cool so, today i want to share my favorite experience since i am still breathing *alhamdulillah ^^ so, i still have a chance to share it with you guys.

I will do it in Manglish which is Malay + English words mix up together in sentences so i am apologize for that. Let's start !

In 2013,

I always got sick which is sore throat and fever. But the worst scenario is my throat. Its hurting me so bad. I am easily sick if my throat start to swelling. Before this i also always got a fever which cause of my throat too and its not weird because they have connection between Ear, Nose and Tongue. How do i know it? Because the doctor told me.

Clinic and me is a very common place and the doctor know me well. The same medicine all over again until one day something new hit me and its really hurting me until i am crying that night without my family notice it.

Pada suatu malam,

I dah rasa macam something tak kena with my ears yang menyebabkan its really hurting me. I ingatkan macam ada something masuk dalam telinga, and then i try to sleep. But i can't! Sakit sangat. Esoknya hari persekolahan. Well maybe its a good sign that i don't have to go to school but that pain take over the place. From in the bedroom, i go at living room and crying. I switch on the light till my mom heard something and came out from her room to see who's at the living room in the early morning.

Mama: Adik kenapa ni? Kenapa tak tidur lagi... Esok sekolah kan...

ME: Mama telinga adik sakit sangat.. Adik tak boleh tidur *while crying

Mama: Ya Allah... Sakit sangat ke.. Takpe esok kita pergi klinik okay?

ME: Okay mama.

So my mom masuk balik bilik with risau face. Mak mana tak risau kalau anak sakit even demam right? And then sedang menahan sakit dan akhirnya i pun tertidur di atas sofa di ruang tamu.

Esoknya subuh my mom bangun and kejut untuk subuh and she ask me whether i am ok or not. And guess what, elok je i buka mata, the sakit thing terus hit me hardly and lagi sakit and pedih. Terus i cakap sakit. My mom kena bersiap untuk ke sekolah because she's a teacher so she need to be ready for work. My dad will send me to clinic.

Early in the morning queuing for my turn in clinic is not the best part when you are really painful. I try not to care my pain but seriously its still killing me slowly. When it comes my turn the doctor see my ears and she gave me some ear drops and pain killer. If the pain still the same, i need to come again. What?! Again? Hm

After a few days, still the pain won't relief even a little. My throat start to swell up. The next day, i go for a check-up again and the doctor ask me to go for a ENT (Ear, Nose & Tongue) Specialist. In the evening i go there with my parent after picking up my mom from work.

Doc ENT: So, i think your ears can be done by now because we do have the tools to remove the thing. Can we proceed?

ME: *stare at my mom

Mama: Just do it doctor. Dia mengadu sakit sangat tu.

Hehe... Sorry memang tak reti nak jawab apa kat doctor. So this will be my longest story kot. But selalunya if story direct tak panjang pun rasanya HAHAHAHA

Okay done with my ear thing. Doc say it will still pain but it wont be long. I tak nak story how that thing sucking in my ear. Sakit sangat :( But hahaha still ada geli but masih sakit okay!

Doc give me a date for check up and he give me MC of course.

Masa 2012 merupakan tahun terpenting saya iaitu PMR. And ya... cikgu math saya cakap saya suka ponteng kelas dia... Sebenarnya kebetulan masa sakit tu always kelas dia... So what should i do. HAHAHA

Telinga dah kurang sakit but then doctor told me punca sakit tu ada kaitan dengan tekak. Lately ni memang tonsil senang bengkak and infected with kuman. The doctor give a suggestion to operate my tonsil. There's a pros and cons. But i want to share the pros!

The pros thing is :
YOU WILL NEVER FEEL PAIN OF SORE THROAT

The cons
Low antibody

Itu je la kot. I don't know but i do love the Pros sebab i tak pernah sakit tekak lepas operate until now but if i sakit tekak pun just rasa kebas but tak rasa macam dulu bila sakit tekak je susah telan makanan. HEHEHE

Ada kebaikan dia if u buang ur tonsil. trust me its worth it!

Before go to swasta hospital, i go for government hospital to check my throat.

Government Hospital,
First time go there i need to wait until 1-2 hour well i already expected for that. And the doctor told me to come again next week (if not mistaken) for a regular check-up. Next meet up, the doctor said i am fine and my throat don't need to operate. I am relief.

BUT then...

Yes aku sakit balik and bertambah teruk sekali dengan telinga sakit lagi!

I go back to clinic. (Swasta clinic ya) and doctor pass my case to that ENT specialist for further check-up. So masa ni la i kena pergi clinic specialist tu. Yes my cerita kejap atas bawah but kalau awak baca dari awal, you will get it.

Ye la dah settle telinga kan, doc suggest me for tonsil operation which cost about RM3k-5k. I don't remember but atas 3k. I dengar je my doctor cakap and siap bagi tarikh untuk operate. My dad and mom just listen the doctor suggestion and then my dad said, operate je.

I am so shock. So the doctor choose the date so it can be done quickly without waiting for any patient. Its cool because the doctor pick the date of my mid school holiday (cuti seminggu pada pertengahan tahun 2012). Hari apa tak pasti tapi after a few days terus start sekolah. Dengan kerja sekolah berlambak tak buat. Kononnya nak buat lepas balik dari operation tapi tak boleh sebab sakit dia terlampau!

Masa kat hospital, i kena tahan wad sebab i got high fever. Sepatutnya after a day operate i dah boleh balik but the doctor ask me to stay because i am weak. So i stay in the hospital extra two day. I always sleeping after take the medicine. I barely eat because my throat is so hurting me. Every time i see the tray, i will ask my mom to feed me but seriously i cannot eat much.

If sakit tekak, mesti korang pernah dengar orang suruh makan aiskrim right? YES! You need to eat ice cream! Ada yang kata just vanilla will be better, tapi any kind of flavour vanilla, chocolate and strawberry you can eat. But in the hospital i always eat vanilla. So eat vanilla ice cream! HEHE

I still remember, i ask my dad to buy a guitar for me. I don't know why i ask for guitar and until now i don't know how to play guitar. Anybody want to buy my guitar? PM me ya ~

Okay dah keluar hospital memang excited but before keluar hospital, jarum dekat tangan kena tanggalkan.. Jarum dia pehhh tak boleh bawa bincang la.. Sampai bleeding and nurse give me cotton to press the blood. I am not crying.

Balik je rumah i am so happy to see my brother and my nenek (or i call her mak but she already passed away :'))

I feel so happy to see them eating and mak panggil i to join them eating. I dengan slumber makan paprik ayam yg agak pedas for my throat to accept and my brother ask me, boleh telan ke? And i just 'suka hatilah nak makan.' seriously masa makan tu memang takde effect apa- apa. Tapi keesokkan harinya i start to feel uneasy with my throat.

Setiap hari isnin ada perhimpunan, and i cannot stand too long. I terlalu pening. Sampai lagu wilayah i terduduk sebab pening sangat sampailah habis lagu. Ada seorang pengawas sedar and the she ask me, i am okay or not. I pun terus jawab okay. I pun bangun balik and ready for ikrar. Honoestly memang tak larat, bila dapat duduk tu dah macam satu nikmat dan kalau boleh memang nak duduk je tak nak berdiri dah.

Haritu juga sekolah nak bagi award pelajar contoh bulanan, and guess what, nama aku disebut. HAHAHA! Aku pelajar contoh. Kau rasa? Nak bangun tu fikir dua tiga kali gak sebab takut tumbang. Tapi alhamdulillah i am fine.

REHATTTT!!!!
I just bawa sup untuk makan waktu rehat tapi i tak dapat telan. Its hurting even more. Terasa macam kau telan benda tajam hm.. I give my food to my friend to finish it. I cannot tahan.

Balik tu i terus mengadu kat mama and mama suruh pergi klinik tu balik.

Doc kata itu side effect for a few days nanti akan okay. So , doctor give me a few days MC. I mean a few is 1 WEEK OFF from school. HAHAHA! Cool right? Nak PMR buat hal pulak dia ni...

So i stay at home to recover. I ask my friend about school work and my desk mate tolong ambilkan kertas latihan untuk i sekali. Baik la dia hehe! Syukur dapat kawan macam ni. Tapi ada cerita best. Masa i tak datang ada cikgu tu perli...

Cikgu: Mana Sabrina? Dah tahu nak exam lagi tak datang sekolah. Ada lagi topik dia tak belajar ni...

KAWAN: Dia baru lepas operate cikgu. Sebab tu dia tak datang.

Cikgu: *Shock face. Operate apa?

KAWAN: Tonsil.

And cikgu tu pun cakaplah kenapa tak inform awal and bla bla bla. Jujur la... Cikgu Math aku ni memang tak suka aku but after dia tersalah anggap kat aku, terus baik. Siap nak ajar privately untuk topik yang aku terlepas. Jenis aku cepat pick up nak pula math. Aku tanya kawan aku macam mana and then settle. Lagipun topic tu senang je. Pasal graf. Easy hahaha (ish berlagaknyaaa)

Cikgu tu siap temu ramah lagi what happen on me and i pun cerita je la dari A-Z.

My experience masa cuti seminggu with ubat!

Faham tak kau telan ubat macam telan pin or benda tajam! Aku pernah muntahkan balik sebab sakit sangat. At first i fikir dia terlupa jarum ke apa kat dalam tekak i, sebab i banyak baca kes tertinggal barang dalam badan patient so i am afraid, tapi sebenarnya tak pun. Its a side effect of my throat. Makan ubat pun menangis. Nasib baik mak ada tolong tenangkan saya. Rindu mak :')

Ohh my kakak angkat pun ada masa tu.. Dia yang selalu tanya khabar and i tak ingat kenal dari mana but masa zaman ni memang era Blackberry BBM hehe~ Dia caring sangat. Idk why tapi i have many kakak angkat on that time. HAHAHAHA!

After a week from MC, i datang sekolah balik like a normal student. Before the operation i tak nak join kawad kaki sebab risau effect operation but then i decide to join again kawad sebab my throat really dah sihat. Cikgu tanya banyak kali sure ke nak join and i pun, sure laaa! Awesome! Before operate beria tak nak join kawad and nak jadikan alasan tapi lepas operate nak pulak join kawad. Apa mimpi aku masa tu i also dunno~

Untill now i don't feel any pain at my throat just sometimes easily falling sick and its normal. Sakit sikit je but u will feel so bad. But its okay. You gonna be fine ^^

Byeee~
Thanks for reading!

Experience at MBO

What a great experience i got here ! It such as precious moment there seriously ~

So, currently I am doing a part time job at MBO . A lot of thing I learn and for me, its a really cool experience of working!

I stay at concession but also selling those ticket! I learn to use those machine. Ticket machine and also popcorn machine! Its cool sebab i suka popcorn so I really want to know how popcorn at cinema being made.

For the first day I am working as a learner . I'm watching how they're working while I been teaching from a senior who I call her Kak Fat. Hehehe. She is so kind ! She is teaching me from A to Z. I am from Zero to something. What can i say is, she's really sincere to teach me. She also very friendly but when it comes to work, she will be so strict and can make me scared too. But, she already explained to me, she will be so serious when it comes to work but if leisure time she will be so friendly.

Enough about her, next is about the popcorn! I really enjoy making the popcorn tho. After switch on the popcorn machine or poppers, then I have to wait for that machine to be heat and hot enough to insert the kernel. I use the big poppers which is one full cup of kernel and full cup of caramel and half cup of oil.

First, I have to insert the kernel but have to make sure the machine was ready to produce a popcorn. After insert the kernel, straight away insert caramel and following the oil. And don't forget to close the lid and wait until the pops sound produce. It will take less than 5 minute. Please be aware because the popcorn will be over cook and hangit xD The caramel will be burn and it will so awful to eat!

Oh the next thing i really excited about is the price, at MBO, the ticket price way too cheap than other cinema. So, its really saving but yet many people love to go to GSC like me XD sorry... But , seriously there's a lot of benefit between MBO and GSC. Let's not talk about TGV will ya ~

If you are movie lover and love to watch at cinema like me, then you will know what i mean. If I can make a collection of all those tickets, i will show it but nahhh... I'm way too lazy to keep it in one box because I forgot where I put it.

Thanks for reading! ^^

No Surname/ Family

Hey everybody!

I'm gonna share with you all some issues that happen on me :)

Do u ever book and the passport only have one name? No family or surname at all. What u gonna do? Yeah u can put the name twice on both box. Which is one on your first name and second on your family name. It shouldn't be any problem.

Middle name is an optional so don't worry ya

Pernah tak korang hadapi masalah di mana dalam passport ada satu nama je. Takde nama family cuma ada nama sendiri je? Korang nak booking kan untuk orang lain pun jadi issue kan. Korang boleh je book dan masukkan nama dia dua kali untuk kedua- kedua kotak nama yang ada. (Middle name tak perlu la nak masukkan) 

Middle name optional ye sayang 

Live chat queue

Untuk menyakinkan anda semua, saya pun pergi la live chat air asia but tengok la queuing number dia! dan kalau awak semua perasan waktu pukul berapa dan pengakhiran dia pukul berapa. Sangat lama sampaikan flight aku nak booking tu terus naik harga kepada RM900++

Untuk masuk ke live chat ni bukan senang ye :) Saya cuba masuk live chat ni lebih kurang 3 kali sebab always kena denied je HAHAHAHA

Okay perhatikan masa ye awak~

Almost 1 jam ! HAHAHA! See betapa lamanya saya tunggu...

Well, nah bukti dia korang takyah la bersusah payah nak tanya air asia pasal hal yang sama. Kesian orang lain yang queue up nak tanya soalan yang lagi penting hahaha

Puas hati? Ada apa- apa musykil ke? Silalah drop komen di bawah. Insya Allah saya akan cuba reply or cari kat social site saya yang lain kalau nak fast respond ye!

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Thanksssss