heart rest

Assalamualaikum wbt 

dan hello~

Hey~ long time no see!

What does it mean to fall hard?

“falling hard” for someone means that you fall heavily in love with someone. “falling for someone hard” means that you fall for someone who is hard, or in other words, difficult personality or a tough personality. I have fallen hard for my partner, who is hard exterior, soft interior.

What is it now. Apa the hoax ? Not literally hoax. its just chaos.

nahh. i don't know how to say this. i just want to take a break. give my heart a rest to take a risk again. i know the risk and i am trying to accept the risk just need time. people can't force you to fall hard on them *pls take note

so, if you have someone who is willing to wait, u should think deeply about risk. they take the risk for you already so why don't you. its ok. it will be fine right?

Mama: Adik kalau nak kahwin kena cari laki yang ada agama dan rajin macam ayah.

Me: Adik punya taste tinggi dan adik ada high expectation untuk terima dorg datang dlm my life. so it will take time.

Mama: ye. sebab ayah dah manja kan adik sangat. takpe la apa yg terbaik buat je la. adik independent sangat. bagus la. adik sama mcm ayah.

Me: *sebak* ya terpaksa ma. sape lagi nak layan manja adik ni? hahaha

tbh, i hate this conversation. just let me chill for awhile. the wound still in healing. wait for awhile. bukan sebab broken the past relay but broken sebab my other half already gone forever. he broke my heart and take it away without giving it back.

hati ni mcm tertanam sekali dengan dia. im sorry dad.

it is hard for me actually. if you say lost your loves one (ur partner) is hard enough to deal, try think the one who raise u and gone forever like forever. at least ur partner still alive and u can check on em. but i don't know what to say. i am not comparing its just feel it is worst feeling ever. i never thought he will left me this early.

he planned so many things about marriage but ya. itu hanya sekadar merancang. its ok.

ok stuck kejap sebab tadi kawan call tanya pasal assignment.. haihh why kena belajar if ayah dah takde... its ok la. bnde dah start so need to end it.

cepat la berlalu~